On my way

Lately I have given a lot of thought to the future. What do I want to do? Where I am going to end up living? What kind of life I am aiming at? The thing is that I don’t really know and that is why I sometimes feel quite lost. Especially when I look at friends who are graduating at their dream jobs, having clear plans for the future or just generally seem to have everything in the right place in their lives.

I am now 22 years old. When I was imaging my life this far as a teenager I always thought I would have it all figured out by now. That I would be all grown up. Oh boy how badly can a person be wrong! I have always been quite a dreamer and I have had the wildest thoughts what I want to do with my life: become a princess, a farmer’s wife (this was after I realized there would not be princes of my age available when I grow up), a racing car driver, an actress or a teacher. The list goes on and on. But by the time I had to make decisions regarding my future I was clueless. I applied a little here and there trying to think of a place my strengths would be useful, something I would like doing, would be challenging enough and something I could make a living with.

After all I ended up studying business administration to JAMK University of Applies Sciences. At first I was planning to specialize in fashion and retail but I soon realized that I would not want to work on that field in the future. However I decided to stay since this field has quite diverse things to offer considering working life and I was sure there would be something for me too. This is the second year of my studies and I am still not quite sure what that ‘’something’’ is but I am positive that when I keep an open mind I will find my own way.

The comforting part of all this is that I also have people around me who are in exactly same situation as me. Even people with cool jobs, some older and more experienced people, friends that study just the field they have always wanted to study or just otherwise seem confident and contempt with themselves or their lives. It is relieving to know that you are not alone. There are people out there that feel just as lost as you do. Even the ones that seem to have it all under control. Everyone feels lost and insecure sometimes and it is nothing to be ashamed about.

Even though I know I might not know exactly what I want in my life or where I am going I know I should not worry too much. I still have the rest of my life to figure it out. Of course it is a good thing to plan ahead but an ugly truth is that no matter how much or how hard you plan your life, things will not always go as you planned. But I know that with a positive attitude and open mind I will cope with whatever life has to throw on my path and so can you!

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